Chapter 5
Story: The Girl at the Flooded Window
The rain had stopped.
It was the first thing Marisol noticed when the words sank in — the slow hush of the storm dying, the water easing its assault on the windows. The room went quieter, holding its breath along with her.
"What do you mean, you told them she drowned?" Her voice was dangerously calm. She could feel herself standing on the edge of something, a cliff she hadn't known was there. "You told me they found her rabbit in the fence. You told me they searched the creek for a week. You told me she was declared dead after five years. Which part of that was a lie?"
Dean had sagged against the doorframe, his hands hanging at his sides. He looked like a man whose knees had just been knocked out from under him.
"The rabbit was real," he said. "It was in the fence. I found it there. I swear to you, I found it there."
"But you knew it wasn't hers."
He closed his eyes. "Her rabbit didn't have a stitched ear. Mine — the one I found — the ear was torn and sewn. I assumed it was hers. I didn't know it was wrong until I saw the one in her hands just now." He opened his eyes and looked at the girl, silent and watchful on the mattress. "I didn't know."
"You told them she drowned."
"I told them —" He stopped. Swallowed. "I told them I saw her go into the water. That's what I said. I told them I was watching from the window and I saw her slip off the bank, and I was too far away to catch her."
Marisol looked at him. A man she'd lived with for two years, who had never once raised his voice to her, who had never once lied to her about anything that mattered.
"Why?" she said. "Why would you say that?"
"Because they told me to."
"Who told you to?"
Dean didn't answer. His eyes went to the girl, then to the window, then to the floor.
"Riley," Marisol said softly. "Sweetheart. Who told him to say that?"
The girl hugged the rabbit tighter. Her small voice, when it came, was pinched and tired.
"Dad," she said. "Our dad."
Dean's face twisted. "Our father. He got to me before the search started. He said to me — he said, 'You will tell them you saw her go in the water. You will tell them you saw it, or I will do to you what I did to her.'"
"What did he do to her?" Marisol kept her voice steady, though she felt her hands shaking.
The girl looked up at her. And for the first time, her face trembled — the mask cracking, something young and frightened showing through.
"He put me in the creek," she said. "He grabbed me by my arm and he put me in the water, and I fought, and I bit him, and I got loose. I ran. I hid under the porch. And then he looked for me and looked for me and I didn't come out. And then he told everyone I'd drowned, and I was so scared, and I thought I'd be found, but then he came back and —" She stopped. Her voice dropped to a whisper. "He came back and he told me I had to stay hidden. He told me I was dead now. He said if I came out, he'd put me in the water for real."
Marisol felt the room tilt. She reached out, grabbed the doorframe, forced the world to steady.
"Dean," she said. "Tell me you didn't know."
"I didn't know."
"You went along with it."
"I was fourteen. He had my arm twisted behind my back and he told me if I didn't say what he said, he'd do the same to my mother. He said he'd put her in the creek and make me watch." Dean's voice broke. "I was a kid. I was a kid and I was afraid and I did what he told me."
"You were watching TV," the girl said quietly. "Mom told me to go play, and you were watching TV. I was in the yard. He grabbed me from the porch. He was drunk."
"I didn't know," Dean said again. "I didn't know he was the one who took you. I thought the water took you."
"You told them you saw me go in."
He went silent.
"That was a lie," the girl said. "You never saw me go in. You saw nothing."
"That's what he told me to say." Dean's voice was a whisper. "He told me what to say, and I said it, and I've been saying it for seven years. I've been waiting seven years for someone to find out and I've been too afraid to tell anyone the truth."
Marisol stared at him. All the years of his quietness, his guardedness, the way he never talked about his family — it all rearranged itself in her head, falling into a pattern she had never seen.
"Where is he?" she said. "Your father. Where does he live now?"
Dean laughed. It wasn't a happy sound. "He's dead. Died two years ago, out in Arizona. I got the call from a lawyer. I never went to the funeral."
The girl sat up. For the first time, something like hope crossed her face.
"He's dead?"
"He's dead," Dean said.
"He's dead," the girl repeated, like she was testing the shape of the words.
"Riley, who's been bringing you the food?" Marisol asked. "Who's been keeping you in this house?"
The girl hugged the rabbit. "Dad's friend. A lady. She lives on the next street. She told me Dad said she had to take care of me and I had to stay here, and if I told anyone, Dad would come back and put me in the water."
"He's dead," Marisol said again, gently. "He can't come back."
The girl looked at her. Then, slowly, deliberately, she uncurled from the mattress and stood. She crossed the room, barefoot, and stopped in front of Dean.
"You let them bury me," she said.
He couldn't meet her eyes. "I'm sorry."
"You let them all think I was gone. And you kept it in your wallet — the picture. I saw it. I watched you through the window when you came back to the house that day. You took the picture off the shelf and you folded it and you put it in your wallet, and you told yourself I was gone."
"You were alive," he said. "I didn't know."
"You should have known." Her voice was quiet, not angry. Just stating a fact. "You should have looked harder. You were my big brother. You were supposed to look for me."
Dean's face crumpled. He sank to his knees in the dust of the floor, a man broken by the weight of the truth he had carried for so long.
"I know," he said. "I know. I'm sorry. I am so sorry."
The girl stood in front of him, looking down at him. Then she lifted her hand and placed it on top of his head, light as a leaf.
"I don't forgive you yet," she said. "But I'm glad you came back."
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